perhaps our dear chee is hoping for such "civil disobedience" to play out in singapore.anyway southeast asia paper was alright.back to the books now bye bye!

this is quite a faux pas but morbidly memorable,so here goes!

i fell down at home yesterday like at 1.30am while walking to the loo and ended up having to go to cgh for 3 stitches on my knee cause my skin sort of split open.im limping now at home lor.the stitching was relatively painless and luckily the doctor was friendly.it was my virgin experience of receiving treatment at hospital and i vaguely understand the meaning of health is wealth!

im not so worried about the limping cos after a while you get used to contracting your muscles at the right moments and angles.but i worry about taking a levels with this!!!sigh sigh.

but as poetically and optimistically put by my dear boys,i shall be strong and manly!!and it's a good sign,we hope =) in other news,im an april army kid.so yes,as with most outcomes,there are the good and the bad sides.i'll maximize the former!lets ponder about that some other time.

okay i really shouldnt sound so hyper after this and with one week to go.so bye bye i shall go back to the japanese economic miracle now!

this is purely hypothetical and perhaps even presumptuous.but my suspicion is that as one gets older,we learn to accept our lot in life and resign to it,rather than rebel against it,which is what young people are so predisposed to boldly do.

ngiam just called a while ago and the conversation was as strange as it was special.hahaha.goodnight boys and girls.

http://www.nbc.com/Saturday_Night_Live/video/clips/vp-debate-open-palin-biden/727421/

THE LAST ONE IS THE FUNNIEST BUT THE CRUDEST. WATCH AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION. THANKS.

i like commencement addresses

quite a lot has happened,especially yesterday night.but it wasn't the first time,and i dont forsee it being the last,sadly.oh well.

i hate it when i have so much emotions but i've to block/shut them out cause for such a period as this,you just have to FOCUS.

lovely people and phonecalls keep you sane amidst it all and im thankful.it is a bit unbelievable and slightly dramatic.in one night,all the major things that have been bugging me were thrashed out.thank god for having unlimited sms.haha.

well you cant complain about the cards life dealt to you,they say.all you can and should do is to make the most of it.and something inspirational for all of us --> life is tough,but we can be tougher!!

hari raya lunch was loved.so was the company :) gosh i think sometimes the best things in life really do come free!like intangibles like acceptance and friendships.

but even those things must be enjoyed in moderation in such periods,for excesses in anything besides the books will definitely prove to be bad now.okay okay FOCUS.

it was farewell assembly yesterday!hits and misses:

misses:
1.) i didnt make it for my FINAL RJC morning assembly due to a perennial personality deficiency
2.) i didnt get to meet/take photo/talk to a lot of very special people who have made my rj life sweet and memorable
3.) i didnt mug much4.) i didnt make it for exco morning meeting at - the dreaded timing of all council morning meetings - SEVEN TWENTY A.M.!
5.) i didnt get to thank many of my teachers

hits:
1.) i did get to meet/take photo/talk to a lot of very special people who have made my rj life sweet and memorable
2.) i had lots of fun during the ceremony
3.) i restrained myself from singing in front of the school
4.) i had a good lunch and fun road trip to bukit timah with some of my most spastic friends
5.) i enjoyed joo's birthday dinner at novena with some other 27ths
6.) i stayed over at shanan's!

wanjoo's speech was the bomb.and i am really thankful for how things have turned out over the past 2 years.way way better than what this insecure kid expected at the start of 2007.and above and beyond the good opportunities and experiences,it was really the people who made all the difference.thank god for that.looking back,i cant help but be amused by all the unfounded fears i had about coming to rj.im sure bezzy feels quite the same way :)

but alas,there's no closure at this point.so we shall compartmentalize for now and tackle the BIG ASS!goodbye boys and girlz.

happy birthday wanjoo and zai :)

bezzy and i did the cj paper today at ri library.lol i think one of the places i'll dearly miss in the bishan village is the hullet memorial library!i loved it the moment i went in like back in j1 days.i remember before i was in council,when my afternoons still belonged to me,i would sometimes just randomly go the library and slack/read.very nice times/place.

after math i went to meet zai with his stephanie at the cool ice cream hangout for jc kids.happy 18th birthday :) your card will be written soon.it IS nice.and i feel quite joyful after getting to know sheryan.cause its not just knowing her and becoming friends,but rather what the whole process and friendship symbolise and promise for other similar situations.okay it is highly confusing if you dunno the context but nvm im happy about it.i should learn to grow up and be a big boy about this.hahaha

goodnight now boys and girls.tmr,or later,is farewell assembly.so here it comes,the last official day of my rjc days.nostalgia is bubbling beneath the surface but the sheer mass of academics will see to its silence and subtley,at least until 19th november 2008 when we'll be emancipated from the treacherous clutches of the Syndicate.till then,its a boring life.but we'll make it.YES WE CAN.




and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright

I know you didn't
bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

i always sleep so late.sigh sigh.

coffeebean with sarah darling was not too bad!

okay goodnight :)

a mother-and-daughter relationship,like a father-and-son one,is often the most delicate,vulnerable and yet most heartening and cherished relationships around.i once heard a saying,popular amongst churchgoers,which goes like "let go and let God".you know preachers are good at coming up with such catchy lines la.and one more "release it - dont nurse it",in reference to all of life's hurts and heartaches.cliche they might be,but they do capture some profound truth.

well,today i read an article about obama's family.about how he was raised by a single-mom and his grandparents.that's backbone and toughness,and i admire that he made it in life despite the cards dealt to him :)

in happier news,the vietnam trip is finally more or less confirmed!!im excited but trying hard to contain that excitement so as to better face my math.yes yes one more month,so let's go.compartmentalize is key now.

for the lovers and family,we'll keep going!!

the SAT went pretty well.quite glad.but you never know...anyway im v tired now will go dream happy thoughts now!pls watch the videos below and laugh :)

Scholastic Assessment Test.like many other aspiring pseudo-america-students,i am going to take the amazing test tmr!or rather, a few hours from now.God bless some of us please.yeah,bell curve.sorry ah.

anyway,today was last day of school and i went to school on time!that's a very rare occurrence,if you're in my loop :)

went to syl's place after semi-class lunch and boy i was tired so i slept while his brother timothy who is super funny kept disturbing me with damn funny primary-school styled questions.

im going to sleep now :) God bless america and singapore.the former needs it more for now,since sarah palin might just manage to put on such a good show for this empheral phase of electioneering and campaigning.

goodnight gabriel,goodnight boys and girls :D

im listening to avenged sevenfold's "dear god" now.gabriel got me to download the song for me and its quite nice.its about this guy praying to god,asking Him to take care of the guy's girlfriend when he goes away/dies/is no longer with her.quite bittersweet right?

okay anyway i think there's always people in your life who you cannot stand.it seems like that is a perennial constant in our lives,wherever you are and whatever you are doing.it sucks if it is someone you cant avoid much,but i think we have to learn to deal with it.there's an age old chinese adage that is something like its easy to be friends/cordial/civil but living together is really the litmus test.living under one roof is i suppose the greatest test of it all.

and so it is unsurprisingly that yesterday my aunt and her daughter-in-law had a big row again.and really,every family-no matter how rich,how "successful",how loving-has that dirty little secret of pain and regrets.and since we are part of a family unit,we individuals are thus naturally prisoner to troubles and problems of life.no wonder we all so emo!

and i really shouldnt be thinking about such stuff given that the big Ass is like 5 weeks away.but doing SATs is depressing when you are getting some shitty score which makes one's future seems so unmistakenly bleak :( but after talking to bear i decided i really should learn how to learn for today.like for the here and now!no more excessive retreat into the past or premature advancements into the future.at least for the next one month or so.compartmentalization is key to temporary contentment which is required for practical considerations!!

seth called last night but i spoke in monosyllabi.i still love him :)

P.S: EMO ANGSTY KIDS,LISTEN TO ABBA TO LIFT UP YOUR SPIRITS!!!!!!!!!!!